"just show me a moment that is mine. its beauty, blinding and unsurpassed. make me forget every moment that went by and left me so half-hearted cause i felt it so half-assed."
because i learn something new about me everyday, my opinions and loves and fears and words change as i grow. sometimes the roots get cut from underneath me impairing my balance. other times water is poured into their souls and they get me to dance. the more i grow, the more i learn....and the more i learn, the more i regret.
what if you couldn't regret. what if you just went through life and made decisions knowing all you know at the time and it would be the right one. maybe you always do make the right decision, until you learn more, and then things become shakey. but it is what it is, right? i guess living with no regrets is a strong motto, but how do you keep regrets out. it seems like they sneak in and invite all of their friends (jealousy, anger, frustration and sadness, but who's naming names?)
i want to get to that point where i can believe that i do what i know is right, whether that's the truth or not. whoulda coulda shoulda is my least favorite dance.
i want to get to that point in my life where i believe in the things i am doing and feeling and loving and singing so much that i taste every second that i have. i don't want to do anything half-assed. not anymore. all that does is get you to regret as you grow and learn. can you make that decision? or is it fate. can you change fate? or are you just stuck.
i love life. i love people. i love my dog and pancakes...at the same time. i dont love looking back and wishing for more when the moment is gone. i dont love the guilt it invited with it.
i want to ride free and go wherever i can. i know i can do so much if i imagine and believe.
"so i'll be outside in love with the kind of beauty it takes more than eyes to know."
